*_~this man Siloma~*_
Here is a little different thing from what I’m used to writing. Today I’ll write about someone whose fought with life so hard.
He is someone who motivates me to face tomorrow. When it’s hard I’ll go back and look at his journey and I’m able to feel better.
He has seen what life can do to anyone. Someone who has stood with Christ amidst what he has gone through.
He is the founder of a mental health organisation called “`Nijali“`
It works on all matters concerning mental health.
Before I say what I have to say about him. Oh I know I’ve already said a lot but hey.
I hope this shows someone who has lost hope that there is hope beyond the struggle. So keep going.
Here is something he has to say.
“*What Material Are You?*
So today I spent at Aga Khan as from 11-6pm. My outpatient cover was depleted and the hospital had misplaced this letter that authorized them to use my inpatient.
So after greeting all the nurses and other staff there, (been visiting for nine years now) one of the nurses, a friend of mine, were having a chat with me as she took my vitals and I told her of how the seizures I got had no triggers. She told me not to stress about them, I shouldn’t try so much to think what’s ailing me.
Funny, the doctor today was actually honest with me that she doesn’t know what she is ailing me nor what she was treating. No diagnosis fits my descriptions and so everything is an enigma. Am just taking medications.
I told this to a friend who is also battling epilepsy about my day today and she asked me what is going in my mind in which I told her nothing, am actually as fit as a fiddle. I told her the one who allowed this weird disease to attack me had a plan. Though I may not see it, there is a way out. I believe.
I want to speak to someone today. I remember telling the friend I rather die whilst telling someone about Christ than some weird disease to break me down 😊. This is the 14th year battling something that has had so many names (epilepsy, anxiety, schizo-affective disorder, severe depression, psychogenic seizures etc)
These were some of the medications I have been taking and are now just lying in my house. Keppra – 250mg – 88 Tablets
Lexotanil (Bromazepam) – 1.5mg – 102 Tablets
Frisium (Clobazam) – 10mg – 30 Tablets
Cipralex – 10mg – 109 Tablets
Tegretol 200mg (Plain) – 270 Tablets
So ever feel like your mountain is too steep? Know that you are not alone. Sometimes I cannot wake up in the morning, sometimes I cannot smile, sometimes I have these severe headaches, sometimes I feel so lazy and fatigued, sometimes I forget almost everything etc.
Despite all my challenges, I don’t ask God why. I actually tell Him thanks because someone somewhere wishes they were me. I rejoice always and people keep on asking me, “Are you really sick?” And I tell them no. I tell them that I am too blessed, talented and such a genius that such great intellect can’t fit in my brain. 😂
Yes sometimes the devil whispers to me, “Hey, do you know with your seizures you cannot drive your own car? Do you know that nobody would love to be married to such a sick guy? And what of your kids? 🤔” You know what I do? I let him whisper all He can and then I tell him, “It is written… ” And I know how bitter he feels when I turn my sad moments and trying tests to words of victory to build others.
Am sharing my story to talk to you. You who maybe quit on God because of the misfortunes that may have happened to you in the past. Am talking to you who has a mental disorder and thinks you’re the only one. Am talking to you who thinks that there’s no future for you, well, you may not stop the devil from whispering to you but you can always get that time to find out what God says about you. It is written, “Crucible is for the silver, furnace is for gold, the Lord tests hearts!” I have a question for you, what material are you? Plastic?
With Love 😊
Back to me.
From the day I met SILOMA he challenges most people . With all he has going in his life. He always has something that will make you want to face tomorrow. He always checks up on everyone at Nijali. He has created a home for a lot of people around. Regardless of what is going on in his life he gives hope and continues spreading the gospel.He is a firm Christian and always reminds us that there is a reason why he is who he is and he is facing what he is facing.
To you who is reading ,you might be going through other situations ,fight a little longer.
You are a very strong person hold on Christ and keep believing that you will heal. We love you. We thank God you exist to always show us that mountains are meant to be climbed.
#Siloma is a hero
I’m sorry for the long read but I felt like sharing what this awesome Soul shares.
Have a nice week ,month.
Always remember to smile